// Always hungry -__-.//

Not eating enough slows your metabolism.

So does being fat.

I can eat when I’m small.

// June 4//

Meal 1

Had an apple & banana AT THE SAME DAMN TIME!

…AND some strawberry yogurt (Dannon Light’n’Fit) {dunno where the fit part comes into it… but whatevs}

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Meal 2

Turkey Sammachhh (1 slice a store bought whole wheat bread from the bay-kurry, 1/4-1/3 of an avocado, few drops of that submarine dressing, tomato slicezz, a lul sea salt, some low fat cheeze (this mozerella pizza blend i think) with seasonings on top fo’ some flava… yeah) No top slice—- I baked it like a pizza ;P

// June 3//

Meal 1

Instant Oatmeal [1 Regular Packet w/ 1 tbsp Peanut Butter, raisins, cinnamon, & blue agave sweetener]

4 Dove Dark Chocolate Beautiful Lovelies w/ small handful of raisins

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Meal 2

Chicken n Broccoli [Boiled a few strips of this pre-cooked frozen Tyson brand and half a slice of this half colby cheese or something like that on microwaved frozen broccoli… beautiful, really <3 ]

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Meal 3

African Style Fried Beans [Kidney & black beans, diced tomatoes, tomato paste, onions, garlic powder, chili powder, organic seasoning, paprika, sea salt, onion powder, and Pam instead of pouring oil into the skillet to dehydrate it]

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Snack 

Apple

2 Dove Dark Chocolate Things

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Summary:

So lately I’ve been having this urge to eat and eat and eat and eat… like I was never full. My body has this familiar zone at 190 lbs. Anywhere below that and my appetite skyrockets.

Luckily for me, I’ve been gaining it back in muscle for the most part (I’ve been working out ;D) so people see me and think I’m still losing weight [even though I weigh roughly the same amount I weighed last year]. 

BUT, I want to start cutting fat faster. From now on I’m ignoring all hunger pains/cravings— It’s total body exercises and swimming an hour a day for the rest of the summer. I want visible ABS! That’s my goal.

// June 2//

Meal 1

Fried Egg on Toast & 1 cup of Organic Vanilla Soymilk

27.4 carbs

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Meal 2

1 Sweet Potato (Microwaved, cut up, covered in sugar free syrup mixed with blue agave sweetener)

Instant Oatmeal (1 pack regular, half a pack Cinnamon Roll flavored mixed with peanut butter, soymilk, and blue agave organic sweetener)

171.9 carbs

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Snack

2 Dove Dark Chocolate Bites

9.4 carbs

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Meal 3

1 Sweet Potato (Same as before— sweet potatoes are nature’s pancakes)

41.4 carbs

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Meal 4

Potato Fries (Potatoes cut up, sprayed with Pam, sprinkled with iodized salt and Italian seasoning, baked)

Fried Beans (A thoroughly rinsed can of Kidney Beans fried in 3 tablespoons of olive oil with onions and a scoop of tomato paste)

[I didn’t even want to calculate the carbs present in that last meal… Too depressing. I’d rather calculate shit like vitamins and protein. The stuff you can smile about ;P. Carbs are like the Gods of our diet world. You hate them, but for some odd reason you can’t live without them O_O.]

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Summary:

There is absolutely nothing in this house, other than eggs and maybe chicken, that will keep excessive carbs out of my diet. And whatever I buy for that purpose is eaten up and gone by everyone else in a matter of days.

That whole low-carb approach will probably just have to wait until I get into a college dorm room with only one adult with 24 hour access to all the food in my fridge. Until then, it’s calorie counting for me T_T. It’s the only way that’s been working for me lately. That damn 180 mark…

SOOOOOO :D Who’s going to kill themselves with the 30 Day Shred because their treadmill turned into a death trap tonight? MEEEE :D [edit 6/4/2012: I so forgot to work out that night too… fail]

// Carbs aren’t Bad.//

But from now on, I’m cutting back.
If you’ve taken Biology, you’d know carbs are made out of glucose.

That being said: Bread, cereal, pizza T_T, pasta, pastries, rice, potatoes are all pretty much limited or off limits to me now. I haven’t even been eating a lot of any of that lately, but I also found hidden carbs in things like raisins (I love RAISINS :[ ), peanut butter, etc.

I’m not against carbs in any way… I’m scared shitless that even though I’ve been losing weight, I’m getting closer and closer to being diagnosed as a diabetic. I barely eat candy anymore. I try to stay away from cookies and cakes; I never buy them at the store but I hardly ever turn them down when offered. 

So I’m going to try cutting them all off, just to see how I feel while doing it. If it gets me past my 180 lb. plateau, hey :D.